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This post was originally written on September 2, 2018.  These are all lessons I've been learning and re-learning, and I find myself coming back to them in the deep breaths I take when I feel myself falling down a rabbit hole.  Maybe you can find some use in these words too. 1 - It is perfectly fine to not do anything. And it is even more acceptable for you to not beat yourself up and feel guilty about it 2 - The Universe provides.  God provides. Whoever or whatever it is that you believe in, will provide.  If things seem uncertain, they might be for a time, and you should just let them remain uncertain, knowing that eventually they will be clear.  It is also important to note that when they do become clear, you should trust in that clarity.  If you don't make moves in life, the Universe will make them for you. 3 - We have very little control over anything outside of ourselves.  It is often better to just take a deep breath and let things go than to hold onto things that

When I was young, all I could look forward to was turning 16 and being able to get my license.  Living out at the very edge of the school district, I spent most of my academic years begging for rides in town to friends houses, because the majority of everyone who lived anywhere else had no interest in driving the whole way out to Pluto. After that, it was 18. Because being able to (legally) stay out all night without fear of violating a curfew (which may have actually happened) was a huge thing for someone who was a night owl to look forward to. And of course the excitement of being able to legally drink was on the table for way longer than it should have been.  Not that I gave that law any credence either, because I was stubborn and did what I wanted to anyway.  It's entirely possible I did more drinking in the years before I turned 21 than in those that followed.  But this isn't about my delinquent behavior..... After 21 I had 25 to look forward to.  Since marriage wasn